My Thoughts. . .

I usually don't do this but I'm going to share my thoughts in hopes that it will help me stay motivated and accountable. I have started the HCG diet (or you could call it starvation) last Sunday Jan. 10th. FOUR days and I have lost 8.5 lbs. It really hasn't been too bad.
I've wasted way too much of my life being heavier than I should be. I've taken extreme measures in the past to lose weight only to gain some back after having two kids. My kids have shown signs of wanting mom to lose weight and that's when it starts to pull at your heart strings. Everytime a commercial comes on for weight loss, Savannah turns to me with encouragement and a smile and says, "mom, you should do that". Gee thanks Sav, ya sayin' I'm fat?
Anyway, it's time to get things under control. I'm old now and the body is showing me signs of weakness. On my small 5'1" frame, it just can't carry this weight without hurting me. I have tried so many times and failed. I've given up trying for several years now because I'm sick of failing. FAIL is the ugliest word in the Dictionary. I never allow my children to FAIL at anything they do, they always must give it everything they have and never quit. How can I ask them to do that when I'm not?
Then there's Shaun, poor Shaun. The young man who chased all the cute, super tiny girls in town. He was so proud of me during the first several years of our marriage and now I am a huge dissapointment to him. He doesn't say it but occasionally he'll remind me that I don't need that donut. Some may think he's awful. . .and maybe so. But he is the most supportive husband ever. He shells out the money everytime I try a new diet. He is doing all the cooking during my time on HCG. The day before I started, he did all my grocery shopping and had everything weighed and portioned out in individual baggies for me. He REALLY wants me to be successful.
I am so sick of looking like a freakin slob. I haven't been shopping for clothes in over a year or more. All my money and effort goes into my kids as I'm sure you all can tell. THAT is sooooo going to CHANGE! It's time for me. I can't wait to wear the cute clothes that I see others wearing. I'm never going to be a long-legged, big-busted, skinny beauty queen but I know I have potential to look like a cute 40 year old.
I want to be able to put on a swim suit and feel decent in it. We are taking a major beach vacation or cruise as soon as I am done. AND, I am going to be in every damn picture we take. So there!
I can do this!

Finally. . .SNOW!

The kids had a fun time in the snow today - for hours. . .

Christmas was great - The kids were happy.
Shaun and I went and picked out our new phones the day after.
We only had to return one item.
I had to work Christmas day for 6 hours and missed
lunch at Grandma and Grandpas.
The tree will probably stay up until the end of January
so that I don't get too depressed.
Can't wait until next year.

I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday
as much as we did.

The CuteKid Contest - November 2009 Contest Winners

Bo won the Pre-Teen Division for The Cute Kid Modeling Contest. Very exciting - now he has a good shot at the $25,000 college scholarship and many more prizes.

The CuteKid Contest - November 2009 Contest Winners

Cutie!

I took their pictures myself because I had procrastinated and couldn't get anyone else to take them. They turned out OK.

I will post all of them after I get my Christmas Cards sent.

This is just a fun one of Savannah.

New WOOD Stove!

When a disaster happens and ya'll regret

puting in a GAS stove -

come on over and we'll keep ya nice and warm.